Why have I been so quiet?

I wonder too....

I went off quiet for a few months. My first-month excuse was my travel and yoga learning journey (which I will share at some point). It was the perfect excuse as I did not have much access and time to the electronics, and internet and it was a real digital detox. I returned from travels a few days later but remained disconnected for a while. I took another short holiday at the beach and then went to see my family. All lovely genuine excuses…. but isn’t life always like this? There will always be lots going on and lots to do! Had I not promised myself to be more consistent? Well, I returned, and it has been over 2 weeks with no newsletter out. So why have I not been writing?

After writing this one paragraph, I am tempted to close it and leave it on drafts with 5 others that I have done earlier. This is how the trend has been. I have an intense idea of writing, and the minute I start, it is all gone. Like pooooooooofffff into thin air. So excuse my rambling on this one, but I will continue writing exactly what is going on in my brain at the moment.

My brain has a lot of tabs open - just like the tabs on my screen or the drafts on my substack. Everything is filled with half ideas and yet nothing is complete. I am attempting to find the best note-taking app that works for me, I am working on a new cool project (shhhhh, I will announce it soon), I am attempting to read the first chapter of my module textbook and at the back of my mind also brainstorming content ideas for my yoga page. I am thinking about what plans I should make with my friend, as I am seeing her after so long tomorrow, yet I am also thinking of how cold I will get on the way home and I should maybe switch my seat next to the window to get some sun. I am thinking of the rape case hearing that is going on at the moment, which takes me to the rape cases that are ongoing in India right now that has taken over my feed and my emotions. I am wondering why I have been quiet about them and not shared anything at all but that makes me wonder why I have been quiet and not shared anything about the other atrocities happening around the world. But then what about things that happen around me? The patriarchy that contributes to the rape culture. Ah, how can I forget about the next holiday plans? And the madness in the head continues.

I am sharing this with you all because of two reasons. One, I am forcing myself to write whatever I can write. And the second is that I know I am not the only one who sometimes has to deal with this. Our monkey minds, juggling from one to the other thing does not let us fully concentrate or complete any. Thus my strategy is to hold one thing and keep doing it, even if I am not doing it in the best way. I will until I train myself to do better. And thus, this newsletter, full of a lot of different things, not as interesting as the others have been, but yet with an end to it is a push and a proof that I can hold this monkey brain to one thing and I can achieve it.

What are your strategies? Do share!